[三十三]于是之: “我是带着对国家对剧院建设的满腔深情提出这个建议的……” 不论人们怎样评价于是之的功过是非,有一点是不容置疑的:于是之始终希望北京人艺好,希望北京人艺不断出作品、出人才。在这个大的问题上于是之是不存私心的。 整个80年代,包括90年代前半期于是之的健康每况愈下的情况下,他始终在关心着我的创作。同时应该说,于是之并不仅仅对我一个人如此,他对剧院内外的很多作家都是这样的。 如果说我有什么遗憾的话,抛开前边提到的那些流产的创作计划不论。最遗憾的,是我个人 [33] So: “I came up with this proposal with full affection for the state’s construction of the theater...” No matter how one evaluates the merits and demerits of the theater, one thing is incontrovertible: Beijing art is good, I hope Beijing art continue to work out of talent. So on this big issue is not selfish. Throughout the 1980s, including the first half of the 1990s, his health was deteriorating, he was always concerned about my creation. At the same time, it should be said that this is not the case for me alone, as he is for many writers both inside and outside the theater. If I have any regret, then put aside those abortion mentioned earlier creative plan no matter. The most regrettable is my own